來源：MJJCN.com /赫芬頓郵報)
作者：Rev. Barbara Kaufmann 翻譯：ilmj1314
日期：2011-11-23
作者：芭芭拉·考夫曼牧師（Rev. Barbara Kaufmann）
仔細看看日期，開出的藥片數量與服用過的相比，剩下的數量以及藥片在那間臥室放置的時間表明，傑克遜不是一個藥癮者，而事實上他都沒怎麼使用給他開的藥物。但這個故事可不迷人，審判就是要吸引人要獲得關注度，並預計比“凱西•安東尼（Casey Anthony）案件要更轟動”。但該案不是。也許是癔症疲勞症？難道這些我們還沒受夠嗎？
HLN的評論者似乎要強加“上癮”這個標籤，因為它符合他們宣傳書籍和事業的計畫。“邁克爾•傑克遜”已經不自覺的為很多書籍和事業進行了宣傳，因為人們徵召了他的名號用於他們自己的目的。HLN也不例外。儘管藥癮、藥瓶標籤和藥物使用之間有矛盾的資訊，儘管被納入證據的醫療記錄是未簽署的混亂的，但一個藥癮專家醫生跳入到同樣的“藥癮”怪圈中。這位元醫生可疑的記錄被允許在法庭上展示，但醫生卻沒有出庭，他無法站出來解釋為重新塑造傑克遜的面部，而對其進行的面部手術治療。傑克遜得了白癜風和紅斑狼瘡 — 同樣的病在歌手希爾（Seal）的臉上留下了疤痕。邁克爾•傑克遜的面部治療和重塑完全合情合理，他讓自己在舞臺上得以生存下去。
同樣是這位醫生猜測，夜間使用異丙酚是因為傑克遜的肺部狀況不好，同時內部人士知道邁克爾•傑克遜有色氨酸合成酶缺乏症，這是一種缺少蛋白質潤滑作用的肺病。傑克遜的歌迷可能會啟發那些任何有話說的人，但他們既不核查事實也不問歌迷。如果你想瞭解體育明星或流行文化人物的事情，問問瞭解他們一切的歌迷。
對於評論者，公道的說，他們的報導或許會更加糟糕，歌迷或許會被置於更加惡劣或黑暗的處境。不幸的是，歌迷中的邊緣人物被突顯出來，包括相信傑克遜還活著並隱居起來的陰謀論者。除了偶爾的混戰，大部分時間歌迷表現很好。
傑克遜的主流歌迷，比發出聲音的邊緣團體獲得的注意少，他們口才清晰、善解人意、聰明，興趣在於正義和辯護。其中很多是專業人員，為社會做貢獻、交稅並在郊區或城裏養育孩子。他們有一套有趣的故事要講述給社會，任何一個人都應該想聽聽。他們不得不說的故事令人震驚。
這場審判看起來都是關於邁克爾•傑克遜，儘管莫里的混亂生活眾人皆知 — 和6個女人生有7個孩子，甚至在他自己診所的行醫方式讓其他醫生和巴里•費德里 貝格 博士（Dr. Barry Friedberg）看來都是不計後果的，費德里 貝格 博士曾說“莫里能做的唯一更加危險的事，是將沒有降落傘的傑克遜推下飛機”。什麼樣的醫生會將一大堆藥物送到私人住所？當他是唯一一個照看病人以防發生事故的醫生，而在沒有適當的急救儀器用於安全保障和復蘇的情況下使用危險藥物，這是什麼樣的醫生？藥品標籤上注明需要按規程使用。一個簡單的調節泵根據體重和計量指導調節異丙酚流量就可以挽救傑克遜的生命，而一個調節泵只花費1500美元，這僅僅是莫里每月工資的一百分之一。莫里擁有一家診所，如果他能大量訂購異丙酚，他就可以訂購可以挽救傑克遜生命的醫療儀器。
是的，這再一次成了邁克爾•傑克遜的審判，傑克遜甚至在死後還被推到了審判席上。諷刺的是，最引人注目的證據不是來自控方或辯方，而是來自邁克爾•傑克遜自己。有麻醉護士說，傑克遜聽起來像是處於異丙酚作用之下 — 在沒有攝像機錄製、沒有媒體的情況下，他清楚的知道自己的動機、自己的目的，甚至處於藥物作用下知道自己的遠景計畫。他說：
“艾維斯（Elvis）沒有這樣做，披頭士（The Beatles）沒有這樣做，當人們看完我的演出，我希望他們會說‘我這輩子從來沒有看到過這樣的演出。沖，沖，我從來沒有看過像這樣的演出，沖，太棒了。他是世界上最偉大的表演家’。’我會拿著這筆錢，（給）一百萬名兒童，（建立）兒童醫院，世界上最大的，邁克爾·傑克遜兒童醫院。
裏面會有電影院、遊戲室。孩子們在沒有遊戲室和電影院的醫院裏感到沮喪。他們生病是因為他們鬱悶，他們的思緒困擾著他們，我想給他們那些東西，我關心他們這些天使。上帝想讓我做這個。上帝想讓我做這個。我會做的，康納德。
不要有過多的希望，沒有更多的希望。他們是下一代，將拯救我們的星球。美國、歐洲、布拉格，我的孩子們。
他們沒有母親四處游走。他們被遺棄，心裏退化。他們找到我 — 請帶我走吧。
我想為他們那樣做。我會為他們那樣做。這會比我的演出更讓人銘記。我的演出會幫助我的孩子們，並一直是我的夢想。我愛他們，我愛他們因為我沒有童年，我沒有童年，我對他們的痛苦感同身受，我感到他們的痛苦，我能解決。
《治癒這世界》（Heal the World）、《天下一家》（We are the World）、《你會在哪兒嗎》（Will You Be There?）、《迷失的孩子》（The Lost Children），我寫下這些歌曲因為感到痛苦，你知道，我痛苦。”
兒童醫院或治療中心是邁克爾•傑克遜的夢想。醫療和治癒兒童的主題不是第一次出現在邁克爾•傑克遜遺產中。當傑克遜這個含糊不清的宣言第一次被報導，HLN的簡•瓦萊茲•蜜雪兒（Jane Velez Mitchell）在電視上公開宣佈，傑克遜的這段錄音證明邁克爾•傑克遜的歌迷一直以來所說的 — 邁克爾•傑克遜被誤解了被曲解了，夢幻莊園對公眾的印象被曲解了。她為邁克爾•傑克遜平冤昭雪。她只說過一次，正當同一天，那些用這個“熱門新聞”賺錢的人在推特上責駡了她，她沉默了。
康納德•莫里不是第一個也不是最後一個知道邁克爾•傑克遜夢想的人。在義大利記者西爾維婭•比佐歐（Silvia Bizio）的一片文章中，迪士尼《EO船長》（Captain EO）中扮演反叛人物的安傑麗卡•休斯頓（Anjelica Huston）在傑克遜去世一個月前，偶遇了他。他們相互擁抱，一起在房間裏坐下聊聊各自的生活。
休斯頓回憶邁克爾是溫柔而脆弱的，很難積聚足夠的怒氣扮演EO船長，他和太空成員一起演唱《我們來改變世界》（We are here to change the world）。她說就像怒氣不存在於他的DNA中。在那裏，傑克遜需要她，他穿著戲服並嘲笑她扮演惡棍角色說的臺詞。在他們短暫的相遇時，休斯頓說他似乎更加脆弱了，特別是在感情上。休斯頓抱著他，她說：
“我們談論了他對性騷擾的指控感到多麼的羞辱，談論了失去夢幻莊園的悲傷，他在那裏住了很多年。我記得他說的話‘他們毀了我的夢想，或許幼稚和愚蠢，但我有這個夢想，有一個旨在讚美童年純真的地方，我從來沒有童年，他們剝奪了我的童年。我愛孩子，我絕不會傷害他們。我盡我一生來愛他們，努力為他們做好事。傷害孩子的詆毀傷了我的心。這是難以承受的痛苦，那些指控可怕、不公平……’正當他說這些事的時候，開始哭泣。我抱住他……他是如此瘦弱和虛弱。”
傑克遜告訴她，他正在為倫敦演唱會做準備。她回憶說：
“他很刻苦的排練，因為他感覺‘沒有再被愛戴的希望’。在一些他說他從未做過並且陪審團也證明其清白的事情上，他被公眾判處了私刑，他想再次回到公眾的心中。他瘦弱蒼白，我能感覺到他對於過去，對於很多焦慮和未來的不確定性，有多麼痛苦。”
當比佐歐提出這樣的問題“你認為是什麼真正的害死了邁克爾•傑克遜？” 安傑麗卡•休斯頓毫不猶豫的回答“邁克爾傷心欲絕。因為這個他去世了。事實上是，他們傷透了他的心。”
Rev. Barbara Kaufmann: Michael Jackson on Trial Again -- Part II
http://www.americansuperstarmag.com/...-again-part-ii
Submitted by Celebrity News Wire on November 18, 2011
Conrad Murray's trial for manslaughter predictably became about Michael Jackson instead of his doctor because the use of Propofol was unusual and the patient was famous. In court, the displaying of medication bottles was high drama and the media pounced and rushed to publish "Michael Jackson's addiction."
A close look at the dates, the number of pills prescribed measured against the number taken, number left and span of time the pills sat in that bedroom proves not that Jackson was an addict, but that he was actually non-compliant with medications he was prescribed. But that isn't sexy; and it's all about sexy and getting viewers for a trial that was predicted to be "bigger than the Casey Anthony trial." Except it wasn't. Hysteria fatigue, perhaps? Have we had enough?
Pundits on HLN seemed to push the "addict" label because it suited their agenda to promote books and careers. "Michael Jackson" has promoted many books and careers involuntarily as people conscripted his name for their own purposes. HLN was no exception. An addiction specialist physician jumped on the same "addict" meme despite the conflicting information between addiction, bottle labeling and usage, and despite medical records entered in evidence that were unsigned and confusing. The physician's questionable records were allowed in court but the physician was not and he wasn't made able to explain his treatment of Jackson for facial procedures to reconstruct his face. Jackson had Vitiligo and Discoid Lupus -- the same disease which has left the entertainer Seal, facially scarred. It is entirely reasonable that Michael Jackson's face be treated and re-sculpted; he made his living on stage.
That same physician also hypothesized that the nightly use of Propofol accounted for the poor condition of Jackson's lungs while it was well known to insiders that Michael Jackson had a Tryptophan Synthetase Deficiency which is a lung disease characterized by a lack of protein for lubrication. Jackson 's fans could have enlightened any one of these talking heads but they didn't fact check nor ask fans. If you want to know something about a sports or pop culture figure, ask fans who know everything about them.
In fairness to the pundits, the coverage could have been much worse and the fans could have been depicted in a much poorer or darker light. Unfortunately the fringe elements of fandom were highlighted and that included conspiracy theorists who believe that Jackson is alive and in hiding. And for the most part, fans behaved well except for an occasional scuffle.
Mainstream Jackson fans who get less attention than the vocal fringe, are articulate, thoughtful, bright, and interested in justice and vindication. Many are professionals who contribute to society, pay their taxes and raise children in the suburbs and cities. They have an interesting story to tell society should anyone ever want to listen. What they have to say is shocking.
The trial, it seems was all about Michael Jackson despite Murray's dalliances are well known -- seven children with six women, his methodology even in his clinic appeared reckless to other physicians and one who ventured: "The only thing Murray could have done that was more dangerous was to push Jackson out of an airplane without a parachute." And what doctor ships a stockpile of medication to a private residence? What doctor using a dangerous drug does not have the proper emergency equipment required for safety and for resuscitation when he is the only one there in case something happens to the patient? The drug labeling requires it as do protocols. A simple regulator pump that would have saved Jackson 's life by regulating the flow of Propofol according to body weight and dosage guidelines would have cost $1,500 of a salary one hundred times that per month. Murray owned a clinic; if he could order Propofol in bulk, he could order medical equipment that would have saved Jackson 's life.
Yes, it was the Michael Jackson trial because once again, Jackson was put on trial even in the afterlife. And it's ironic that the most compelling piece of evidence came not from the prosecutor or from the defense, but from Michael Jackson himself. Jackson, whom a nurse anesthetist says sounded like he was under the influence of Propofol -- with no cameras filming, no media in attendance, was clear about his motivation, his intention and his future plans even in that sedated state. He said:
"Elvis didn't do it. The Beatles didn't do it. When people leave my show I want them to say 'I've never seen nothing like it in my life. Go. Go. I've never seen nothing like this. Go. It's amazing. He's the greatest entertainer in the world.' I'm taking that money, a million children, a children's hospital, the biggest in the world. Michael Jackson's Children's Hospital.
Gonna have a movie theater, game room. Children are depressed -- in those hospitals, no game room no movie theater, They're sick because they're depressed, Their mind is depressing them I want to give them that, I care about them angels. God wants me to do it. God wants me to do it. I'm gonna do it, Conrad.
Don't have enough hope; no more hope. That's the next generation that's going to save our planet starting with - well talk about it. United States, Europe, Prague , my babies.
They walk around with no mother. They drop them off, they leave -- a psychological degradation -- that. They reach out to me -- please take me with you.
I want to do that for them. I'm gonna do that for them. That will be remembered more than my performances. My performances will be up there helping my children and always be my dream. I love them. I love them because I didn't have a childhood. I had no childhood. I feel their pain. I feel their hurt, I can deal with it.
'Heal the World,' 'We are the World,' 'Will You Be There?', 'The Lost Children.' These are the songs I've written because I hurt, you know, I hurt."
A children's hospital or healing center was Michael Jackson's dream. And this is not the first time the subject of medical treatment and healing of children has come up in Michael Jackson's legacy. When Jackson 's slurred declaration was first reported Jane Velez Mitchell of HLN declared on air that this recording of Jackson proves what Michael Jackson fans have been saying all along -- that Michael was misunderstood and mischaracterized and Neverland Ranch was misrepresented to the public. She called the conversation vindication for Michael Jackson. She only said it once as that very same day people who made money with "hit piece" biographies chastised her on Twitter and she went silent.
Conrad Murray is not the first nor the last person to be privy to Michael Jackson's dream for children . In an article by Italian journalist Silvia Bizio, Angelica Houston who played opposite Jackson in the Captain EO film for Disney, accidentally ran into Michael Jackson about a month before he died. They hugged, hunkered down in a room together and caught up on each others' lives.
Huston remembered Michael as being tender and fragile, having trouble mustering up enough anger to carry out his role as Captain EO with a spaceship crew who sings 'We are here to change the world.' She said it was as if anger didn't live in his DNA. He needed her there, in costume and sneering her lines to play off her villainous character. Huston said he seemed even more fragile especially emotionally, during their brief encounter. She put her arms around him; she says:
"We talked about how he had felt humiliated by the accusation of sexual harassment and about the sorrow for the loss of Neverland, where he had lived many years. I remember his words: 'They ruined my dream. I had this dream, perhaps childish and foolish, a place designed to celebrate the innocence of that childhood that I never had, and they took it from me. I love children, I could never do them harm. I spent all my life loving them and trying to do good things for them. The libel of harming a child--that breaks my heart. It is an unbearable pain, those accusations are unjust and terrible...' As he said these things, he began to cry. I held him in my arms...He was so skinny and frail."
Jackson told her he was preparing for the London concerts. She remembers:
"He was training hard because he would have 'no more hope to be loved back again.' He wanted to be let back in to the hearts of the public after his public lynching for something he said he didn't do and a jury of his peers agreed with. Huston goes on: "he was thin and pale; I could feel so much pain in him for the past and a lot of anxiety and uncertainty for the future."
When asked by Bizio, "What do you think really killed Michael Jackson?' Anjelica Huston didn't hesitate: "Michael had a broken heart. For this he died. The truth is that they broke his heart."
A close look at the dates, the number of pills prescribed measured against the number taken, number left and span of time the pills sat in that bedroom proves not that Jackson was an addict, but that he was actually non-compliant with medications he was prescribed. But that isn't sexy; and it's all about sexy and getting viewers for a trial that was predicted to be "bigger than the Casey Anthony trial." Except it wasn't. Hysteria fatigue, perhaps? Have we had enough?
Pundits on HLN seemed to push the "addict" label because it suited their agenda to promote books and careers. "Michael Jackson" has promoted many books and careers involuntarily as people conscripted his name for their own purposes. HLN was no exception. An addiction specialist physician jumped on the same "addict" meme despite the conflicting information between addiction, bottle labeling and usage, and despite medical records entered in evidence that were unsigned and confusing. The physician's questionable records were allowed in court but the physician was not and he wasn't made able to explain his treatment of Jackson for facial procedures to reconstruct his face. Jackson had Vitiligo and Discoid Lupus -- the same disease which has left the entertainer Seal, facially scarred. It is entirely reasonable that Michael Jackson's face be treated and re-sculpted; he made his living on stage.
That same physician also hypothesized that the nightly use of Propofol accounted for the poor condition of Jackson's lungs while it was well known to insiders that Michael Jackson had a Tryptophan Synthetase Deficiency which is a lung disease characterized by a lack of protein for lubrication. Jackson 's fans could have enlightened any one of these talking heads but they didn't fact check nor ask fans. If you want to know something about a sports or pop culture figure, ask fans who know everything about them.
In fairness to the pundits, the coverage could have been much worse and the fans could have been depicted in a much poorer or darker light. Unfortunately the fringe elements of fandom were highlighted and that included conspiracy theorists who believe that Jackson is alive and in hiding. And for the most part, fans behaved well except for an occasional scuffle.
Mainstream Jackson fans who get less attention than the vocal fringe, are articulate, thoughtful, bright, and interested in justice and vindication. Many are professionals who contribute to society, pay their taxes and raise children in the suburbs and cities. They have an interesting story to tell society should anyone ever want to listen. What they have to say is shocking.
The trial, it seems was all about Michael Jackson despite Murray's dalliances are well known -- seven children with six women, his methodology even in his clinic appeared reckless to other physicians and one who ventured: "The only thing Murray could have done that was more dangerous was to push Jackson out of an airplane without a parachute." And what doctor ships a stockpile of medication to a private residence? What doctor using a dangerous drug does not have the proper emergency equipment required for safety and for resuscitation when he is the only one there in case something happens to the patient? The drug labeling requires it as do protocols. A simple regulator pump that would have saved Jackson 's life by regulating the flow of Propofol according to body weight and dosage guidelines would have cost $1,500 of a salary one hundred times that per month. Murray owned a clinic; if he could order Propofol in bulk, he could order medical equipment that would have saved Jackson 's life.
Yes, it was the Michael Jackson trial because once again, Jackson was put on trial even in the afterlife. And it's ironic that the most compelling piece of evidence came not from the prosecutor or from the defense, but from Michael Jackson himself. Jackson, whom a nurse anesthetist says sounded like he was under the influence of Propofol -- with no cameras filming, no media in attendance, was clear about his motivation, his intention and his future plans even in that sedated state. He said:
"Elvis didn't do it. The Beatles didn't do it. When people leave my show I want them to say 'I've never seen nothing like it in my life. Go. Go. I've never seen nothing like this. Go. It's amazing. He's the greatest entertainer in the world.' I'm taking that money, a million children, a children's hospital, the biggest in the world. Michael Jackson's Children's Hospital.
Gonna have a movie theater, game room. Children are depressed -- in those hospitals, no game room no movie theater, They're sick because they're depressed, Their mind is depressing them I want to give them that, I care about them angels. God wants me to do it. God wants me to do it. I'm gonna do it, Conrad.
Don't have enough hope; no more hope. That's the next generation that's going to save our planet starting with - well talk about it. United States, Europe, Prague , my babies.
They walk around with no mother. They drop them off, they leave -- a psychological degradation -- that. They reach out to me -- please take me with you.
I want to do that for them. I'm gonna do that for them. That will be remembered more than my performances. My performances will be up there helping my children and always be my dream. I love them. I love them because I didn't have a childhood. I had no childhood. I feel their pain. I feel their hurt, I can deal with it.
'Heal the World,' 'We are the World,' 'Will You Be There?', 'The Lost Children.' These are the songs I've written because I hurt, you know, I hurt."
A children's hospital or healing center was Michael Jackson's dream. And this is not the first time the subject of medical treatment and healing of children has come up in Michael Jackson's legacy. When Jackson 's slurred declaration was first reported Jane Velez Mitchell of HLN declared on air that this recording of Jackson proves what Michael Jackson fans have been saying all along -- that Michael was misunderstood and mischaracterized and Neverland Ranch was misrepresented to the public. She called the conversation vindication for Michael Jackson. She only said it once as that very same day people who made money with "hit piece" biographies chastised her on Twitter and she went silent.
Conrad Murray is not the first nor the last person to be privy to Michael Jackson's dream for children . In an article by Italian journalist Silvia Bizio, Angelica Houston who played opposite Jackson in the Captain EO film for Disney, accidentally ran into Michael Jackson about a month before he died. They hugged, hunkered down in a room together and caught up on each others' lives.
Huston remembered Michael as being tender and fragile, having trouble mustering up enough anger to carry out his role as Captain EO with a spaceship crew who sings 'We are here to change the world.' She said it was as if anger didn't live in his DNA. He needed her there, in costume and sneering her lines to play off her villainous character. Huston said he seemed even more fragile especially emotionally, during their brief encounter. She put her arms around him; she says:
"We talked about how he had felt humiliated by the accusation of sexual harassment and about the sorrow for the loss of Neverland, where he had lived many years. I remember his words: 'They ruined my dream. I had this dream, perhaps childish and foolish, a place designed to celebrate the innocence of that childhood that I never had, and they took it from me. I love children, I could never do them harm. I spent all my life loving them and trying to do good things for them. The libel of harming a child--that breaks my heart. It is an unbearable pain, those accusations are unjust and terrible...' As he said these things, he began to cry. I held him in my arms...He was so skinny and frail."
Jackson told her he was preparing for the London concerts. She remembers:
"He was training hard because he would have 'no more hope to be loved back again.' He wanted to be let back in to the hearts of the public after his public lynching for something he said he didn't do and a jury of his peers agreed with. Huston goes on: "he was thin and pale; I could feel so much pain in him for the past and a lot of anxiety and uncertainty for the future."
When asked by Bizio, "What do you think really killed Michael Jackson?' Anjelica Huston didn't hesitate: "Michael had a broken heart. For this he died. The truth is that they broke his heart."
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